Have hard conversations with compassion.
"I can tell it bothers my students that they don’t get matching shirts to wear, special lunches, and expensive gifts."
You need to fill your cup.
Own it and apologize, but have self-compassion.
Are award ceremonies even worth it?
The longer you wait, the harder it will be.
It's not supposed to be like this.
Teachers are humans, too.
Deep down we ALL want to feel appreciated.
Hold your teacher-student boundaries.